the year is winding down

what have you achieved?

I was just reading an open letter on Gala Darling's blog.

"We all had some crushing lows & our fair amount of anguish, but despite all that, I think you’ve done really well."

I feel like I'm in a transitional moment. Like this year won't really end, but it shall continue. I don't feel resolved, but I feel on the edge of discovery.

"I think that when you are doing important things, the universe will throw challenges at you to see how serious you are. If you give up, it obviously didn’t mean that much to you. The universe will give your dream to someone else. But you haven’t given up. You keep forging ahead. You are so lionhearted & full of love & hope."

I will continue forging along this path. That has be rife with 'crushing lows'. But I see the silver lining. I see the progress I've made. I've seen the progress we've all made. Up and down.

"You are such an inspiration to me & everyone around you! We are so glad you are here. You make us really happy."

font?

Sometimes.
I don't like myself very much.

I'm sure this is a very relatable attribute.

Though this fact doesn't reassure me in times like this.

Today I'm in the process of creating my reinvention.
It isn't so much clinical as it is an adventure into art, smoke and mirrors.

I will be here.
Living.
But pulling the puppet strings of another.
Someone I can use to represent MY ideas, without ME.

Until I can get used to the idea of me.

(I hope this is the same font. It doesn't seem the same as before hrm.)