sabbatical

Uni is going quite well, in the past few days I've returned =]. I'm making small movements and changes and I feel quite proud of myself, to accomplish such small things because I need to start small again. Whilst it feels like I'm still in Year 6 at the moment (getting to know myself increasingly well due to the fact that I have no one else to get to know), I realised that by the end of Year 6, I did make friends anyways. So in a way, I hope this is just history repeating itself. Once I started high school I had many friends, I had musical epiphanies and a new love for life. I became energised, and eventually coaxed myself into becoming a little more extroverted. I think maybe this theory is true because it makes sense for life to be cyclical. And seven is a very important number. The sabbath day - on the seventh day, God rested. He had built his wonders, and took a break. After years of work, people often take a sabbatical - a whole year of not working. This year has felt like my sabbatical for so long. I even wrote about it on paper which I rarely seem to do. I could never pinpoint why, but I believe now it's just to do with cycles. I felt my whole self withdrawing from the things I had built up in the years prior. My walls came down very quickly, and I soon patched them up, haphazardly, trying to remember how they had been arranged before..but it didn't work as well as a slow patchwork. I had no time to confer with maps or memories. And so I made rash decisions, that seemed to be based on ideas of quick, self preservation. There was no long term plan, so to speak. And in such a way, this isn't really a sabbatical - it wasn't planned, it was brought upon me. I feel like now I have a chance to pause and rebuild properly though. I'm very grateful for such a chance.

Hey guys

Hello!
I haven't updated in a while, eh?
Many things have happened since then! I have completed one semester of university, and am trying to pluck up the courage to go look at my results LOL.Its not going well obviously, because I haven't checked. Though I think that they'll come in the mail tomorrow anyways. I've been playing a lot of jazz guitar lately and listening to a lot of random stuff. Both the Paramore and AFI albums are coming out on the 29th of September, and I'm very excited for that! I'm also excited to start my new subjects and buy new books this semester =]. I've become a little more immersed in colour lately. There's a whole wide world of colour...why not utilise it? I've been working a lot and watching a lot of youtube.
If a cake was 50% cocoa, 50% flour, is that overkill?