Today I worked for a long time.
Well...
5 hours.
But it felt like a long time...and I had to do an extra 20 minutes at the end to help pack away the cigarettes.
And while I was at my register...my ear started hurting.
And normally...you'd think "Ow, no! A freaking earache!?"
But no.
I was thinking "Yes! Does this mean I don't have to go to school tomorrow?"
Which brings me onto my main point in this confusing mess...I just don't want to go to school tomorrow.
This public holiday brought me so much comfort...a reminder of what school holidays felt like. I've never in my life missed school holidays *that* much. But I really, REALLY, don't want to go to school for a while.
It's too much. I can't take it.
I want it to disappear for a while, so I can sleep and have weird dreams and not have to worry and fret over things that I pretend not to worry about.
That's double the effort right there. There's the whole worrying part, then the whole, trying to cover it up part.
Save me, please?
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They played "Your Body Is A Wonderland" today on the supermarket radio thingy :-).
I'm sure John Mayer didn't purposely set out to write pleasant songs for shoppers to listen to and not be frightened by, but fortunately for me, his songs get played quite often.
It's a comforting feeling.
It's a part of home life.
Unlike that damn "Sarah" song. And I'm not talking about the song by Eskimo Joe...it's this song that says the name "Sarah" WAY too many times for it to be taken seriously. The funny thing about the situation...is that one day I was in the bathroom at Westfields when I first heard that song, and was first quite annoyed with it. But then, to top it all off...later that day when I was working...the "Sarah" song appeared AGAIN. Just my luck.
I find it odd that once you find out about a song...it seems to haunt you.
Maybe it always haunted you, but you just never noticed? I don't know.
But like I told Emily already..."Road Trippin'" is now haunting me ever since she showed me the song.
On the topic of shopping background music...the other day I walked into a clothes store...I can't remember exactly which one it was, but the music was loud, and not really "background". But hey, I'm not complaining, I'd rather they bring the music out from the background, and into the foreground.
But this particular shop...
Gahh...
I was scared.
That music was intimidating. And scary.
Which is weird...because it wasn't anything sterotypically considered 'scary' ie. shock rock Marilyn Manson or death metal etc. That I can handle and sometimes appreciate...but it was just....
this electronic,
ostinato
of fear.
I wanted to run out and cry.
But then I just thought to myself, "How the hell do they expect to sell clothes with this overpowering the ears of everyone?"
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Anyways, I need to go and sleep. Goodnight
<3Helena
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3 comments:
1. Youre insane. Only you would analyse music in a shop. (well, maybe emily and i would join in...)
and i too noticed that holidays are appreciated much more in senior school. just the way it is i'm afraid... days off allow you to shrink away from that part of life, put it on hold etc. *sigh* sadly, the most exciting thing about my day off was that i got to see my cousins. aside from that i should've stayed home and studied, i was asleep almost the whole day. so, at least you got to experience the whole day, even if it did involve an earache and questioning your dedication to the things that stress you out.
and, of course, what day is complete without a little john mayer? :)
Imagination is what i wanted!!!!
Go you with your imagination!!!
:):):)
(vampires, i love it!)
yes, i seems i have been living for the weekends too...the holidays were over way to soon to be expected, i wasn't completely 'rested' yet. i dont know what "sara' song you are talking about...but i think the way you have written about..prehaps it is better i dont know :)
i'm trying to picture the sort of music you became scared of. was it like one of those really powerful rave techno songs that you hear in action movies when you know something bad is going to happen at this club and you see everyone dancing...and everyone looks evil and and and then the vampires walk into the room and people stare spontanously combusting
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