was it a dream?

Reading back of the past few blogs, I realise I sound like a really sad person...
I guess because I usually feel the need to vent my feelings when I am in that state of mind, and when I'm in a more positive state, which is the majority of the time, I can more tangibly show my emotions in real life...

Another thing that seems to get covered up in here is my incessant 'lol'-ing I do in everywhere else, it seems, but here. Maybe that can also be attributed to the dark subject matter I seem to discuss...or more like allude to vaguely heh. >.<

I want to talk about something normal.
Like how I'm going to buy a new mobile phone...
and how I miss my friends.
How I really need to pay my fine at the library because there are so many books I want to read within the next two months at least... (I never knew there was a $15 lost book processing charge as well >.<)
How I'm determined to have more will power.
And how I shall develop a thick skin that deflects the terrible but allows the brilliant to penetrate.

Bye ...