an excerpt

"if i'm a bad person, you don't like me - well i guess i'll make my own way.
it's a circle, a mean cycle, i can't excite you anymore
where's your gavel? your jury? what's my offense this time?
you're not a judge, but if you're gonna judge me, then sentence me to another life.

you treat me just like, another stranger...
it's nice to meet you, so, i best be on my way out...

ignorance is your new best friend.

this is the best thing that could've happened
any longer and i wouldn't have made it.
it's not a war, it's not a rapture,
i'm just a person and you can't take it."

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This is just a few excerpts from the new Paramore single 'Ignorance'. I didn't like this song at first. There's a lot of speculation as to what the lyrics are about. And taking the most widely spread opinion - it kind of makes me uncomfortable to think it is about that certain relationship...only because it makes me kind of sad. But ...today and last night, my mind has been moving a million miles an hour. So many trains of thought, colliding haphazardly with each other, nothing really being directed to it's proper route or resolution.
But one of these trains...suddenly aligned itself with this song. And for some reason, having a song express how you feel seems to make you feel like you're not alone. Because some other person out there has been through it, it's not like uncharted territory. Reading through some old blogs from the writer in question, has kind of made this whole story click.

I talk about me and them and everyone else all the time. It's nice to try and find a place or a category, but also disheartening at the same time.