It is always disheartening to continuously half-look, and never have the courage to really look. Or to keep the gaze. I'm thinking that's what I'm missing out on. I look, or half-look, then turn my head away because I'm afraid to see the reaction. Everything is made simpler and harder at the same time if I can't see the potentially disgusted look on their face.
The speakers are not functioning at this moment, so I'm sitting in this weird silence that I'm not really prepared for. I keep pressing the 'play' button, just in case... I could just go get the mp3 player, but it doesn't have the songs that I want to listen to right now. Funny that.
I started writing a story between that last paragraph and this, about someone who hasn't got a name yet and half a character. Hrmms.
This blog has definitely gone in a different direction.
I guess I just want to come out of invisibility a little. I want to make the world stop.
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*If you got the above No Doubt reference. Yay!
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I haven't been on this site for awhile, figure I'd catch up on the reading of this blog. Your writing is as good as ever, I don't know if I'm just very aware of it today or something. The entry about traveling by yourself, I get what you mean and I'm glad it's turning out to be a positive thing for you. You are living your dreams!
I hope you don't feel too invisible, you're not. I think people just get overly involved in their own worlds at times not to notice.
Love you!!
oh..and bad boys are more thrilling :D more drama seems to be connected to them in short term lol
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I hope you got to read the first paragraph, it has completely disappeared for what I can see. Hah.
That is an interesting perspective, that people are overly involved in themselves. I never thought about it that way, but I think I am to aid my own invisibility. I tread lightly most of the time so no one can hear my entrance.
Ah the bad boys. Haha yes, the drama. LOL. Whenever I like someone good or bad boy alike, I always get paranoid that everyone else in the room thinks they're as attractive as I do >.<
Haha, I realised the first paragraph was merely hiding beneath a blackened shield. I made it white now..lol
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