Wow, it's been like 6 months since I last posted here. I started experimenting with tumblr and got a bit sidetracked from this blog, but I don't know, I guess I feel like I have a bit of a home here. This is where I can express how I truly feel, and right now I want to yell from the rooftops how I feel, but I can't really talk to anyone any more than I already have.
My problem boils down to this.
It's so cliche, but. I like a boy.
And for some strange reason, he seems to be interested in me.
This doesn't happen to me much. So it's all really new.
How we know each other...is such a long, strange story. But to put it simply, we have a mutual friend who I used to be very close with.
And...I feel so confused. And nervous. Very very very nervous. This is all so new to me. And whilst I get scared off by people rushing with me, and I end up pushing them away as a result, I'm just as scared by this slow progression of friendship, that obviously has the "I'm into you" connotations. I'm scared of what happens if things don't work out. I'm scared of wearing my heart on my sleeve like I have been. I can't figure myself out, let alone another person.
I think I'm leaning towards taking the risk. It's not like I've done this before. I've never done this before. It's all new and scary, and if I get heartbroken and feel like shit and we cannot be friends ever again - then at least I'll be able to write some good songs from those experiences.
3 comments:
take the risk because sometimes its worth taking the risk, you never know how it will end up till you've taken the chance at least you won't look back and say i wish i had taken the chance because you shouldnt have to look back on day and have regrets. <3
Thanks Mariea! I've been so ballsy lately, taking risks, because you're right - even if it all goes wrong, at least I know I took the chance!
Ballsy is good HAHA!
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