i feel this needs to be noted for an historic sake

I was reading back a couple pages in my blog - so much talk about guys I liked! Haha, it's kind of funny now reading back on it. In some cases, I even had a hard time remembering who exactly I was talking about. Shows how important they turned out to be I guess. Most of the people I've ever had feelings for can be pushed nearly completely out of my mind. A couple remain in the back of my mind, because they were actually really important people and moments in my life. Obviously, they never amounted to what I wanted initially,

Anyways, so this thing happening now, who my last post was about. Everything has pretty much been turned on its head within the past 48 hours. I took the risks I needed to take. And things turned out nothing like how I expected them to - at all. In some ways good and in some ways bad. The bad is that I've suddenly been hit by all these realisations that shit is getting real. I can get hurt. He can get hurt. I have a responsibility to treat someone with the respect they deserve, in a way that isn't just like everyday respect. I have to be careful of paper hearts ripping apart. I'm still worrying, questioning. How can I just put my trust in someone else? How can I believe he's really a good guy? It's so confronting. I've never gotten this far.

The good is that he does seem to be genuinely be a nice guy. A generous heart who has only tried to go out of his way for me, quite literally. I guess I just don't like all this guessing.

The universe was totally against us yesterday. But he made up for it, but trying to call me like 5 times when my phone went dead. I called him back. And told me he wanted to make up for it all by taking me out to dinner. He just texted me asking what food I liked. Oh star, is this real life? LOL